tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4061483026736255843.post4557521020554957471..comments2023-11-17T00:27:31.383-08:00Comments on life.after.anorexia...: Let's Be Honest: Recovery Warfarelifeafteranorexiahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14995948227699986041noreply@blogger.comBlogger5125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4061483026736255843.post-30247144406056492752012-08-23T15:59:57.905-07:002012-08-23T15:59:57.905-07:00It is so hard to disassociate yourself from anorex...It is so hard to disassociate yourself from anorexia. I still have similar thought patterns and habits from when I was struggling with it, and I view myself as recovered. I feel like it is still there under the surface, but to indulge in it is to give power to it. <br /><br />There are many times over the years I have "relapsed" and fallen back a bit, but every time you rebound, that "part of you" recedes further into the darkness. Then you can say "No, I'm not even going to go there anymore". It is hard. It is a loss. You feel like you are losing a part of your identity, and to one extent, I still feel that way. But the pain gets less and less, and you realize that you life is so much more than punishing yourself. It's about living.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4061483026736255843.post-13558324264752728462012-02-20T07:20:06.047-08:002012-02-20T07:20:06.047-08:00I am with you! I recovered half way from AN since ...I am with you! I recovered half way from AN since 2010, but now a month ago said "I will go all the way". I started eating intuitively. Felt worse than before, but stuck with it. Now have gained a bit, feel dazzled yet things are settling down a bit. I am still gaining - and wondering when it will cease - but will recover no matter what! I want to be healthy and for the rest of my life!!!!!!Be Inspired!http://www.makinen.fr/susa/wordpress/noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4061483026736255843.post-2974096340328104372012-02-17T13:01:46.510-08:002012-02-17T13:01:46.510-08:00I know exactly how you feel. It is as if my mind i...I know exactly how you feel. It is as if my mind is split in two - there is the side that knows my ED is horrible, wrong, disgusting. And then there is the other side of me that can't help but think about missing it once it's gone. I try to think about my eating disorder like a con-man, try to see it for what it really is. But it's not easy. If you're interested, http://onlineceucredit.com/edu/social-work-ceus-eda has a great technique for how to demonize your ED. It's still a struggle for me every day. Thanks for sharing your story, it makes me feel less alone.Denanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4061483026736255843.post-20052273952049967022012-02-13T10:33:50.539-08:002012-02-13T10:33:50.539-08:00I think I understand you although I do not suffer ...I think I understand you although I do not suffer from eating disorders, I think that what you're saying it applies to a lot of difficulties in our lifes. When we want to get out of our deepest self-destructive mechanisms, we must be conscious of it in every level because that what harms us, your illness in this case, takes over at times and makes us act at its own discretion. We have to return the battle that it is giving us. It's hard, as you say, it is cost effective.<br />You're gonna kill that bitch!<br /><br />¡salú!<br /><br />LucíaLucía-yoquemebusco-https://www.blogger.com/profile/11080894134192919747noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4061483026736255843.post-64949761254312619942012-02-13T10:21:09.651-08:002012-02-13T10:21:09.651-08:00I can understand your position.
I once was in th...I can understand your position. <br /><br />I once was in the same boat. I said I was "recovering" when I wasn't. I kept going back to my old behaviors multiple times. I was not ready to let go of my demons. <br /><br />Everything honestly changed when I started seeing Brenda. At first, I was still in the same old behavior and thinking. Gradually, I came to realize that my ED was a huge ball of unresolved issues from my past. As I gradually resolved my issues, I became more whole, and more willing to let go of my ED.<br /><br />I don't think I will be completely recovered, to be honest with you, because it has been a BIG part of my life for so long (about a decade or so). But I definitely can manage my choices, and decisions.Ashley Noellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03079480848874087331noreply@blogger.com