New meds

Not a lot has happened since my last post. I'm still sick. I can't tell if the dizziness is subsiding or if I'm just learning to live with it. I had an allergic reaction to the antibiotic the doctor gave me. I'd taken it for 4 days and kept getting worse. I developed a fever, I had chills, body aches, sweating, nightmares, hot flashes. I started to hallucinate. I felt this overwhelming sadness everyday around 3 pm (which was six hours after taking the medicine). I was getting migraines. I was itchy and nauseous. My heart was racing. My lips were cracking and bleeding. I was shaking uncontrollably. Not good.

So now I'm on a different antibiotic (since yesterday) and it seems to be working okay so far. The headache and dizziness are really all that's happening. I'm up moving around finally. I've done laundry, dishes. I even made dinner last night for the first time in over a week. I'm still not well, but that's real progress. Unfortunately, reading and typing and all that still makes me dizzy, so I'm trying to keep it to a minimum.

My eating disorder has been sort of on the back burner through all of this. I haven't been eating normally just because I've been so sick. My appetite has been horrible because of the medicine I was taking, but it seems to be returning slowly. There were moments when I was glad I didn't feel like eating, especially since I learned at the doctor's office that I had gained a few pounds. I realized, of course, that feeling that way was wrong. That's the way it works. For me, the eating-disordered thoughts haven't stopped coming (though they are much less frequent). I've just learned, for the most part, to ignore them.

I hope this new medicine will kill the infection without killing me. I am SO tired of being sick.